hold my hand.

I've been very lucky my whole life. I've never experienced death. I've never had anyone close to me pass away, and those who have, I can't remember. My grandparents passed away when I was an infant so I have no recollection of them. I've gone 23 years without ever losing someone. The closest I've ever come to experiencing death was when Michael Jackson passed away and I actually felt sad. I didn't even know the guy and yet his death was the closest thing to mortality that I've ever experienced. Until now at least.

It's weird. This is something new to me. I'm still in complete shock. It's like there's a giant brick in the middle of the road in my mind that won't let me get past it. Every couple of minutes I just think back to the fact that she's dead. Gone. I literally can't get over it.

Yes, I've been very lucky up to this point in my life. But luck doesn't change the fact that it still sucks when it comes time to experience it.

Bye, Sami. You helped make Calgary feel like home when I never thought I'd get to experience home again.

sante fe.

I realize I haven't blogged in a while. iGeneration fail. However, I thought I would point out that I blogged in January that I hoped to upgrade my gadgets this year. A few months back I snatched up an iPad 2; and as of this past Monday I traded in my original 2006 Core Duo MacBook for a brand new 13" Core i5 MacBook Air. It's so sexxxy.

I've gotten 2/3 upgrades done, including the one I wasn't holding my breath out for (my new Mac). All I have left is to get the iPhone 5 when it comes out in the (supposed) fall and we'll be all set.